Did you ever think to yourself … Enough already! How much can one person take? How long does this have to go on? Seriously again?
Some of us are in seasons that never seem to change, they go on for years, its exhausting. Others have Change rapid firing and we would give anything to yell stop and actually have time stand still. Sometimes you have made progress in all areas but one…. or only progress in one area all the time. This isn’t one of those fell good posts, its an honest one. I feel your pain. I’m weary of carrying all the weight. I’m weary of being alone. Just when I think I figured it out I get hit with a curve ball and what I thought to be true even to myself, is not. I am hit with a new realization that just complicated things even more.
However… I look back on all the promises that God made come to pass and I have to trust him for my future. I have to find the little and big things he did and how far he has brought me. I have to be proud of the lessons I have learned that I will never have to learn again. And I have to believe that he loves me enough that when he says to delight myself in him that he will give me the desires of my heart… that he actually will.
So while I am in a season of waiting (that totally sucks and I’m crying a lot) the bible says the JOY of the Lord is our strength. Hold on to that. Joy isn’t happiness but it is tied to faith. Think of it as a verb. As hard as it may be, find that something everyday and re-JOY-ce that you have it and that one thing that you will have! Let that be your strength that gets you through. You can get weary… its ok. You are human but Gods spirit lives inside you ( if not you better invite him in quick). I’m choosing to believe that what I’m going through will come to pass. I choose to believe that every hurt he is bringing up is so I can be healed and whole. I choose to believe God will give me the desire of my heart and I’m going to believe for you too!
” My soul is weary with sorrow; strengthen me according to your word.” Psalm 119:28
” I will refresh the weary and satisfy the faint. “ Jeremiah 31:25
” Come to me, all who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest.” Matthew 11:28
” Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart.” Psalm 37:4